.Wednesday, December 26, 2007 ' 9:28 PM
~ 78th post ~harlo people..feeling terribly sad and troubled now..before anything..i just want to update abit..today need to go back for the dry run for the orientation thing..i woke up at 7 to find out that i only fell asleep at 3+..and 4+ i woke up for dont know what reason..and in the end..i only have a 3+ hr sleep..so i reach school at 7.40+ and i was like talking to yehua..and someone i like want to close eyes ler.. >.<feeling real tired..and im so afraid i wont be able to finish this post..cause currently mother not at home..so if i sleep means i sleep until next morning ler..okay..back to topic..then until everybody come ler..go up 2e6'07 classroom..then go up 2e5'07 classroom..then briefing and then dry run started..act as sec 1 students.. and it was so so so so fun "torturing" the i/c.. (:(but i also back-up i/c.. if got students like this then i die ah)then we go lunch.. (:45 minutes only..ate burger at the nearby bubble tea shop..feeling rather "not hungry" ..but just eat..then go back and have our "games"..the games not bad lar..sort of enjoy myself there..then alot jokes happen in-between..wont elaborate..cause i continue talking..say until tomorrow morning also havent finish ah.. (:so will just briefly say say..then alot games..very very fun! (:and then last but not least..got our water games..water being splashed around..and alot people is like avoiding water..(seriously, water got so scary meh? LOLs ><)forget it..then dismiss ler..then i dont want so early go home..cause i at home also nothing to do..then stayed back with xiu fang and yehua..to help out! (:and then suddenly xiu fang and me is like playing water fight lor..then i dragged yehua in! sorry! haha (:we all enjoyed ourselves..and then go hall..do the "mahjong paper" thing..and we wasted alot alot alot masking tapes..haha (: EDWINLAI, must learn how to save the environment..haha (:then painting..really i enjoyed their accompanience..thank you for accompanying me throughtout the whole day wor! (:then do do do until 5.30..saw weiheng they all leaving.then i suddenly remembered that i told my mother i will be back home before 530..forget it..then i slowly walked out..and we 3 are like keep playing lar..so so so so funny (:then walk halfway towards bus-stop..xiufang suddenly say want take mrt..LOLs.so we accompanied her..and then halfway yehua ran away..to the bus-stop..so we continued walking to mrt station..she bought some food..and then i was like trying to look out for seniors (melissa they all)cause xiufang want to look for them..not me.. (:then jiu like we keep talking talking..then saw agnes (sec2)and we continued talking..and then we exchanged secrets..hehe.. XIUFANG, dont tell anyone hor..! (:i trust you, but dont betray my trust in you hor.. haha.. (:then i took bus home..seriously i really very tired..i went home..then eat dinner first..then on comp..then bath..and i nearly fell asleep while doing all this things..seriously i got not enough sleep.. ><LOLs.okay..end of updating ler..but i want to tell someone something.."seriously.. i really dont know what should i do whenever i saw you..i dont want to avoid you..but i dont want to hurt myself once more again..i really cannot stand the pain once more..i have been hurt once..and i hope that will be the only time i will be hurt so deeply..i dont want to hurt me again and again..i really cannot do it..i tried not to see you..but i just cannot do that..whenever our eyes met..i knew something bad will happen..and i will sunk deeper into the pit..i really dont want that to happen..but i know..no matter what i do..i will never forget you.. cause you are the one who made me realise that he isnt the only..but now cause of you..i have sunk into another pit..why plot my life with so many pits?people say "stand at where you fall"..but this pit is like a quicksand..i cannot stand anymore..everytime i move..i knew i have sunk deeper into it..and sooner or later..i will have sunk into it..and again..i will suffer again..i really dont want that to happen..arent there just any other ways to let me get up?and this time..i knew i have to get up..once and for all..once i got up from this pit..i will plot my route carefully..and i wont want to sunk into another pit again..but is there any ways that i can get up now? i really dont know..i knew she likes u too..but she didnt say out only..i dont know who are you thinking of too..maybe is her..but no matter what..no matter who is the person you are thinking of..i knew i have to get up asap..if not i will be hurt once more..and i really dont want that to happen..again and again..for now..can we just be friends?pure friends..nothing much, nothing less..i wont do any other things anymore..i will just find help..to get out of that pit..but for now..let's just be pure friends.. can? "
I want to be that lovely princess... <3
