.Sunday, March 9, 2008 ' 10:34 PM
~ 109th post ~
feel so terrible now ..
nearly cry ..
PHH u really made me cry in the phone .. im not blaming u .. i just want to show that im very scare .. i scare i will lose u as my best friend .. i scare u wont forgive me .. i scare u dont meant what u say .. i trust that u wont lie to me .. but u might have not tell me something that is hidden in ur heart .. are we still friends ? nono .. do u still regard me as ur best friends ? can our friendship still last ? i dont know what u type in ur space de blog isit true or not . but i just wanted to tell u that .. u are forever be my best friend .. like what i say in the previous post .. best friend a day = best friend forever ! i really cannot live without u .. i need u by my side to guide my way .. to guide me through the dark .. to guide me through the darkest part of my life .. i wont have be what im now without ur guidance .. really .. i meant what i type .. im not lying and whatever i typed out here is the truth .. and that's what i want to express it to u .. i dont want to put it in ur msn .. i scare ur comp will hang as i got too much things to say .. i dont want to lose u .. i cant lose u ! i need u .. i need the friendship .. so that i know even if everybody abandon me .. u will still be by my side .. guiding my way on how to get out of the troubles and problems im facing .. because of u i will not be emo anymore .. i wont cry anymore . i will do my best in my studies so that u need not worry for me again .. PHH .. be by my side all the while can ? if u leave me i will really cry .. i nearly cry just now . and u need not say sorry .. cause im too scared .. far more scare than encountering my phobia .. i told u secrets cause u are my best friend i regard u as my best friend cause i know u will forever be with me .. i know u will forever be with me cause i know no matter what happen u wont abandon me .. i know u wont abandon me cause i trust u and i believe u will always be by my side .. that's what i think .. but what are u thinking about ? do u regard me as ur best friend ? or even do u even regard me as ur friend ? next time if u're angry with me just tell me okay ? i dont want any misunderstandings to happen between us . i dont want our friendship to be broken cause of this .. believe me .. even after i left school .. i will still keep in contact with u as u are the one who made a difference in my life .. the times we spent together will be etched in my heart for etenity .. i wont forget u .. neither will i abandon u .. i will always be by ur side .. but will u ? PHH i hope u can read what i type .. please please please read no matter what .. read the post below also .. please !
I want to be that lovely princess... <3
