.Tuesday, March 11, 2008 ' 8:44 PM
~ 111th post ~
people ..
have such a mixed feeling now ..
i dont know why i had that feeling ..
it just came ..
maybe im too over-sensitive ..
but is just got that feeling lor ..
today got CCA ..
went school at around 12.50 like this reach ..
went dance studio saw hueyhuey practicing ballet ..
feel so zibei lor ..
lixing and hueyhuey all dance so well ..
then i cant even do a left split ..
zibei lor .. T.T
want to leave them alone ..
yet dontknow where to go ..
so never bother them ..
then dance start ..
did the normal warm-ups all these ..
leg pain ..
then ard 3.30 like this go hall ..
even worse ..
my leg hurt more .
at first go the hall behind the 把竿压腿
then after holding for 10 counts of eight ..
need kick ..
wah leg numb lor ..
still need kick .. T.T
want die liao ..
then go down ..
got mattress on the floor ..
need put one leg on matress then another leg on floor then do split ..
wah sia lar ..
want to die lor ..
so continue and continue ..
do centre split = killing me ..
legs numb and trembling liao .
no choice need to hang on ..
if not need recount again ..
then do the 压后退
sia lar ..
right leg still okay ..
left leg press myself down too much ..
now leg freaking pain lar ..
want to die esp when walking lor ..
then go home ..
eat dinner and post ..
i dont understand why ur 2 always treat me like this ? isit something i did wrongly ? ur say we are _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ forever .. but yet ur dont even treat me as one .. i felt so _ _ _ _ out .. the odd one out .. the extra when im with ur .. i dont know whether im too oversensitive or what .. maybe is i think too much or what .. but really i cant feel the friendship .. why everytime friendship problems happen to me ? im fed up with friendship problem ler can ? everytime this kind of things also happen to me .. like when we walking up that time .. ur talk talk talk .. also never bother about me de .. lucky someone noticed .. if not i think i will be suffering in pain .. i dont know what to say when im with ur .. i felt speechless .. i felt extra .. i felt zibei .. i felt useless .. i felt inferior .. feelings came over me .. i confused the truth with my feelings .. why did i let myself believe that miracles could happen ? haiiz .. FRIENDSHIP PROBLEMS !
okay shall cya in the next post ..
byebye
I want to be that lovely princess... <3
