.Saturday, May 24, 2008 ' 5:46 PM
~ 139th post ~
i learnt something .. i finally learnt .. to give up on something that's not urs ..
i guess .. all my hope with her is over .. the relationship is over .. and i know .. nothign could change this fact .. the friendship between us is over .. it's over .. it's hurtful for me .. but .. i gues it's a relief for her .. maybe everything is only my wishful thinking ..?
haiiz .. i understand .. why our distance get wider and wider .. it's not cause of her .. cause of me .. cause im demanding too much from her .. cause i took her for granted .. i guess all this is the result ..
life is unfair .. and i realised .. friendships are not forever ..
before that i didntknow how to cherish u .. i took u for granted .. and
now i learnt how to cherish u .. but everything is over .. i guess .. the friendship between us is over too .. thankyou for all the memories u have given me .. i always cherish them .. but will u ? i guess not .. ur existance .. made a difference in my life .. im sorry for not cherishing u .. im sorry to take u for granted .. i know .. it's all my fault ..
i guess .. this relationship have come to an end ? everything is over .. haiiz .. now that i cant feel ur existance .. i felt weird .. i rather u are always beside me .. forcing me to do this do that .. than when ure gone .. and there's no one beside me to tell me to do this do that .. i rather not .. T.T
i have kept all the things u gave me .. the letters and those wonderful memories .. the times we spent together .. are the ones i truly enjoyed most .. nothing would be able to replace those memories .. i guess .. it's all my fault .. i only wanted to say .. im sorry .. T.T
I want to be that lovely princess... <3
