.Tuesday, October 14, 2008 ' 8:52 PM
~ 196th post ~Hey peepos ~okay im back to post again . cause i dontwant my blog to die yet ):hmm , these two days are bad bad bad bad bad bad bad ~try getting so many disappointments one after another .haiiz , i hate this world .. eeks ):yea , im super duper disappointed with my results ..it's alr the streaming year leh , but why ?why this poor result ? haiiz , idk lar >.<should i still put triple sci geog as first choice ?i dont think i can get in either leh .. dont even have confidence in myself liao luhs ):im afraid , im scared , im super scared .. ):even my cousin said that this exam is stressing me out .never had i once been so afraid of results , except psle but , PSLE leh , who wont scared de ?haiiz . i really dontknow lar .including DnT i only got _ As ):others are all .. haiiz , super poor results T.Ti've failed , failed alot ppl . i've let down alot ppl . when results are out , im going to disappoint alot ppl . i dontwant , dontwant to take results anymore . i had enough ..i really dontwant to face it . i dontwant ..dontwant to see the disappointing look on my parents ,on the face of ppl whom i promised i will do well , on the face of those who wished me goodluck , on the face of someone whom i promised to get 3As ..i want to bang the wall .i want to jump off the building from the 22nd floor .i want to get run down by a 18-wheeler .i want to .. die >.<i know i shouldnt be talking about death here , but ..i really dontwant to continue facing all this >.<i dontwant to look at my results .the thoughts of my poor poor results , make me feel like crying . gosh , i had never worried about results as much as this time never once , a normal exam ):i really dontwant to see this anymore . my results are bad , bad bad bad .so what if im in 2e5 ? being in 2e5 is called lucky it doesnt mean i will score well . so , stop thinking that being in 2e5 means i will score well yea , so what if im in the best class ?best class doesnt means i will score well for exams .it's all thanks to luck that brought me into the first class .okay that's random >.<haiiz , i dontwant post about this ler a proper post coming up next ..
I want to be that lovely princess... <3
