.Saturday, October 25, 2008 ' 8:55 PM
~ 205th post ~
continuing from garden plaza ..
garden plaza , leaves me so many wonderful memories . memories of joy , of laugher , of fun , of happiness . i rmb last year , when boonlin and daryl always drags me to bpp , almost every afternoon . i rmb those times spent with daryl , boonlin and sinyee . never will i forget these memories . i cant imagine myself getting into a new class , new environment , i wont how to survive those boring lessons without the usual ppl in our current class . i cant imagine , neither do i want to know the experience . haiiz , why is heaven so cruel ? how i wish .. this year will stop right NOW , and never continue moving .
isit all just ming zhong zhu ding ? humans are always like this , we will ONLY start to cherish things , when they are ABT to leave us , or after they had left us . isit seriously like this ? idk , just when i started to know how to love and cherish this class , it's alr the end of the year . that time i thought , nvm it's okay , we still had 2 more mnths to be tgt . but the 2 mnths seems so short , so short that i didnt know it was over . i wasnt even mentally prepared that our class is going to split , but right now at this moment , nth is going to reverse back the time .
if only i had a time machine , if only i could turn back time . it was all pure memories , memorable memories . i got so much things to tell the class , so much that i cant say them all . but when we are face-to-face , i cant say a single word . why ? why why why ? haiiz , if i could turn back time , i wouldnt have did smth so foolish . i would have cherish all the times and memories we had spent together as one whole class . why ? why do i only regret it now ? if only i had thought of all these things in the past , then i would have learnt how to cherish the memories we shared . i once thought of , what would happen to me if i suffer from loss of memories when im old . idk , i dontwant that to happen . i dontwant to lose such a wonderful teen-hood memory . i could forget anything , just not these happy memories . i would rather die than having to suffer that ..
haiiz , what is this world coming to ? why must heaven treat us humans like this ? do they think that ' creating ' a 2-year friendship bond is that easy ? isit really so easy ? after so many setbacks and problems , our class has finally became more united . yet the cruel heaven separated us into 5 diff classes . and heaven wanted us to make new friends once again . and 2 years down the road , we have to split into diff schs again . what is this ? i cant accept it . till now , i cant accept the fact that the year 2008 is ending . will time stops , just for us , to cherish each other more ? i know this wont ever happen , but why must heaven be so cruel ? i cant accept the fact , i dontwant to split classes . i dontwant i dontwant !
this world is unfair , so not fair . life is never fair , but why ? i never thought that this year will end so fast , so fast that it doesnt give me enough time to cherish 2e5 when i had them . if only time had pass slower , much slower than now , maybe i wont regret it as much as now . srsly , this is the first class which i cried for . i cried in front of the class , in front of friends , in front of my mother too . i wanted them to know , how much i love and cherish 2e5'08 . had never love a class till this extent , and it was the first time that i felt so hurt , hurt and sad cause of having to leave this class , having to change into a new class , and being split from those friends who is my cannot-live-withouts .
i wanted to thank 2e5'08 so much , thank them for being part of my life , brightening up my life and making my 2 years in swiss such a wonderful one . a big big big thankyou ! i heard myself asking , after our class split , will our bonds and friendships as one whole class , be of like what happen to the class right now , being split ? i dontwant ! after being split into our diff classes , will we still be able to keep in contact with one another , have class outings , go out tgt and cherish the times like there's no tmr ? i really wish someone will tell me the ans is yes , wish pray hope ..
i got so much to tell the class , but the most impt msg i had to bring across to the each and every individual one of your , is that , thankyou for being a part of my life . although this year is ending soon , i sincerely hope that al our friendships and bonds wount end . i love you guys for what u are , and i will never forget the memories u guys etched in my heart . u guys all left footprints in my heart , and these wont be replaced . i wil always rmb the times we spent tgt as a class , and how we used to speak up for each other everytime when one of us get scolded . and i rmb the joke that the geog cher said , about horses and cargo planes .
i love u all always , once a 2e5'08-ian , forever a 2e5'08-ian . hereby wishing u all gdluck in ur future and may u meet new friends , but rmb not to forget us and the wonderful memories we 2e5'08 had shared . i love you guys , forever .. <3
I want to be that lovely princess... <3
